No thinking, no reflecting,
Yet therin something moves,
Following its own course.
Perhaps some lucky people come to know themselves, and gain wisdom, of their own desire. Perhaps they are ready for it. But most of us have to have it wrung out of us through life experience, through other people, or things we cant control. I won't claim I'm wise, but I will say that this year has caused me to look inside myself. What am I when everything I had, or thought I had, was stripped away or shown to be false? It's times like that, when people can realize that they are more than their belongings, their knowledge, more than the people they connected with, more than their situations. There is something in us that is more than what external life shapes us to be.
I am happy to be back, though a little sadder, older, and wiser, than I used to be. But I like to think I'm a little stronger too.